Monday Mornings

So basically monday mornings are the death of me. I have this class every monday morning at 7:40 and I have to be at every class to pass it. Its a class for people who have no idea how to use a computer, I am in it because I was to lazy to take the clep test like everyone else. Getting to the point the work load for this class every week is enormous and I was up til 3 am finishing work last night. So when I awoke this morning I found the clock at 7:20, basically the words out of my mouth are to graphic for this blog. I flew out of bed, changed my clothes, I did not even look in the mirror, sped the entire way to class, run through the parking lot and demoss, got to class and found out I did not even have to be there..... no quizzes, no attendance, and the professor ended class after 10 minutes. Basically it is the suck ,and now it is time for me to go face the mirror.

Break-up Laundry...

So I am recently coming out of a relationship, and its been pretty rough on me.... to say the least. I am making it through and trying to learn life on my own again. Its hard because he was more than just a boyfriend, he was my best friend, the one who I expected to tuck me in with a kiss and say goodnight, and kill of those stupid stink bugs because he knew how much they bothered me.This is what is the best for us, but I don't know how just a friendship will work out between us. I am thinking think this because I will always be wanting more and you need both people to be wanted to make the relationship work even if your going through rough spots.

Now, to the dirty break-up laundry part. The morning after I found myself in the same outfit I was wearing when I last saw him, and we parted our ways. I looked at myself in the mirror and thought of him and how I could never wear those clothes again because I would think back to that day. I will need lots of time to heal and find myself again. I say the time of healing after a break up is called your break-up laundry time. You have all of this laundry to be cleaned, and you do not even know where to start. This break-up laundry is your time of healing and finding yourself again, even though you hate doing it because you know you'll soon forget and move on to another, with a even bigger load of break-up laundry to do.

This is how the day of the break went: (kinda funny but in a sad me way)
1. I got in a car accident with a old man
2. Break up discussion part 1, left my house crying
3. Starting crying in the middle of a 300 people size class,and ran out the door
4. On my to my friends house to compose myself I hit and killed a squirrel with a nut in its mouth. (I was thinking "oh no I killed the baby squirrels mommy)
5. Total put my whole heart on the line
6. Break discussion part two that ends with me crying hysterically, you can guess the out come of the discussion.
7. Up all night tossing and turning in bed
8. get up at five in the morning the next day, wide awake (if you know me I am def. not a morning person).
9. 7 am I dropped my second phone in the toilet.
10. Finally went on a run at blackwater creek and lost fro like 20 minutes so I sat on a log and cried.

Life plan and simple

You can realize that you have really experienced a true love for someone when all you want is what the other person wants, even if it is the last thing you want to do. Sometimes life throws things at you that you know are coming, but you try to stop that from happening with everything inside of you until cant function anymore. I am have found that through each relationship you have with someone that you learn and grow stronger as a person. I am thankful for what I have gone through with different relationships in my life, and would not change them for a moment.